Home

I want to go home, I miss the luxury of getting to see and hug my parents. I am blessed to live the life I have but I need someone to comfort me and remind me that I am not just working for nothing. I am not desperate for a companion but it would be nice to share all my accomplishments with that would be proud and not envious. I am trying my hardest to just make it everyday and people still question why I can't make it to this or why I didn't go to that but they don't understand how hard it is to wake up and do what I do everyday. I just want to go home or to heaven. I can't decide.

Last day of summer

So I did, this year has been crazy so far to say the least. But I survived the summer on a only a bike in the Louisiana heat. I have to admit I didn't think I could do it, some days I've wanted to just give up and fuck it but I push through some of the hardest days in my life so far. I am so proud of myself for what i've achieved so far. I am ready for school to start and get my mind focused again.

I've lost a lot of people this summer, my roommates and tre who I am not to sadden by losing them. But I think it was all for a good reason. No one should hold me back from reaching my potential and all those people were doing that. I am confident now that I can go anyway and be successful. I can not wait to see what is in store for my future.

I want to thank God for all the love and support he gives me, I wouldn't be able to live my life without him.

fathers day

I wish I had the balls to end my life today... I just don't want to live anymore, I don't want work anymore, I don't want to try and live anymore.
No one would miss me

something's missing

when he left me, he took something from me. I am missing who I am, I don't know who I am anymore I don't enjoy going to school anymore I don't enjoy much things anymore. I am missing my happiness and I'm so sad to know that someone who doesn't even care for it took it away from me. And now wont even listen to what I have to say..

dissapointed

I am pretty disappointed with my life right now, I cant seem to get a good couple of weeks in a row, some new issue or task comes up im struggling so hard.

Mad

Yeah I'm mad. This nigga can date me knowing he is not ready for a relationship, then play me for months. Now this nigga got money and drugs and all sorts of shit and he stunting and getting females left and right. Like no bitch you don't make me broke for six months then dump me for no fucking reason causing me emotional outrage now I don't have my fucking car! My car not yours mine is gone. And it was my heart that was broken...all my shit goes down the drain and you step up on my failure and hold up your new money. NO fuck you, selfish piece of shit. I pray that you get what you deserve and I know you will.

day five

Happy Birthday Sted, you are such an amazing soul and I hope you have a great day.
I want you to know how much I care about you, I don't want you to think that I love you and want you but I do have feelings for you, I want you to grow and do better. I want to see you succeed in something you love to do, and that's a hard task so I hope you never rush into something easy or settle for something less than average. Because you deserve so much that you aren't given and I wish I could give you all that but it isn't my place to do that I hope you one day learn your worth.