If you really knew me,

You would know that I am a very lucky girl, I have a family that loves me, a house to protect me, food to satisfy me, and a boyfriend who cares about me. Also I have 4 of the best friends I could ever have in my entire life. But everything isn't so sweet. I fight with my parents at least 5 out of the 7 days a week. I have been diagnosed with Attention Deficit Disorder. I fail a lot of my classes, most of the time I just get by. I'm scared of maybe having to stay back a year, I'm scared of losing my friends, I'm terrified of losing my boyfriend, J.J. If you really knew me, you'd know that I love him and that he has made me the happiest girl in the entire world, he treats me too good. I honestly don't deserve him. If you really knew me you would know I have issues with being left alone, even if it's for 10 minutes. If you knew me you would know that I'm a very sensitive person and when I hear someone else crying, I start to cry, not on purpose I just start tearing. If you really knew me, you would also know that two years ago, the month of October, my best friend died, well more like my my grandfather, he was my best friend in my family. No matter how old I got when he saw me walk into his house he would get up, lift me up in the air, he loved me and I loved him. And if you really knew me after that I started to get really sad, and depressed. And if you really knew me you would be informed that last summer I lost my best friend, Erika, we went our separate ways. Finally if you really knew me you would know that in September, October, and parts of November I was suicidal. I wanted no more of high school, I wanted no more of life. I was through, I couldn't take it anymore. But Kerry saved me, she brought me to reverb, and if you really knew me you would know that Reverb is the best youth group in the world. I found Christ and I am the happiest child in the world. It seems like a happy ending but if you really knew me I still think about my beginning to freshman year and think about what would happen and I still get sad from time to time but never will I go back. Forgive and Forget.