It sucks living like this.

I hate fucking being a god damn charity case, its fucking annoying. i hate having no money i hate not driving i hate fuck everything.


It's true, currently the only thing I like is getting out of the house, I like learning, I like doing homework alone in my room, I like blogging by myself, I like reading quietly, I like being alone. I like to do things without any help. I am a independent person, I like being able to figure things out on my own. I am not saying that I like to be alone all the time because it's not true, I actually can't stand being alone, I have abandement issues. But I like to focus of my homework and in class, I don't need a partner to work, I don't need friends in my class to get through the day. But I do need help, I do need a ride here and there, yes I might barrow money, and I will pay you back. But I don't help getting things I need for school, sports, or anything else that's my own responsibilty. I can do that on my own.
Don't take this message the wrong way.