Hurt.

With all the goods things happening, I'm hurt. I'm hurting myself. I don't get 'drunk', I don't 'smoke'. That is not me and if any of you think that is me, well you need a check up because I've been fooling myself. It's illegal and trashy. I am against it but I will waste my money to fit in, or be cool. That will be the last ever. I could have gotten a purse for my friend, for her birthday. But no I had to throw it away on something I don't even like. Why do I do this? Why can't I fit in somewhere. I'm not a dedicated Christian, I'm not a drunk slob, I'm not an emo freak, I'm not a party person, I'm not anything. Where do I belong..